I think vocabulary says a lot about a person. The words we use describe the things we do, the stuff we think about and it is our words that shape and reflect our reality. After being asked recently how big the little one’s vocabular now is, I started to pay more attention to the things we say and repeat ad infinitum. Read the rest of this entry »
*Spoiler: Discussing plot details in Ashes of Victory by David Weber.
I am currently listening to Ashes of Victory in David Weber’s Honor Harrington series. Someone has just been stabbed to death with a knife. Despite killing three of the attackers, he doesn’t make it. I was really hoping that he would because he is one of the good guys.
I start to think of the repercussions of his death. It was political assassination of sorts and he was a spy carrying a data chip with vital information he had gathered. Not only is that information in someone else’s hands, the group he has infiltrated will probably soon know that he was a spy and that would have a whole different impact on the current political stage.
I have been irritable all afternoon, exceptionally tired and hurting a lot and nothing really helps. I can’t sleep, I can’t stop worrying about meetings, administration, money and keep running through an infinitely long to-do list that I cannot get to at the moment. Getting distracted by details are a terrible way to spend an afternoon or evening and so as soon as the little one went to sleep, I turned on my audio book. Read the rest of this entry »
It is hard to talk about living with a long term condition that affects everything you do or cannot do on a daily basis. It is by nature a depressing topic and many external influences only serve to add more pressure and more negativity. Even where smart people have done their best to turn things around and focus on the positive, like is the case with Personal Health Budgets and Personal Budgets starting to come into effect, the process seems to inevitably spiral back towards the negative in many cases, including mine. Read the rest of this entry »
I noticed a large minor bruise across three ribs on my three year old’s chest a bit more than a week ago. She had been complaining whenever anyone picked her up and touched her right side, but I hadn’t put a lot of stock in that. Touch often hurts with EDS and as long as we modify what we do so that the pain stops, there usually isn’t anything more we can do.
She bruises more than other kids and usually have a bruise or two somewhere (excluding her lower legs, like all small children both are always covered in healthy bruises from playing), but she doesn’t usually complain about it for consecutive days rolling into weeks.
I had a quick look at her side the first time, didn’t see anything spectacularly wrong and then, a few nights ago, I had a decent look under bright light. Read the rest of this entry »
It started with a runny and blocked nose, then a sore throat and sneezing the next day, a mild fever, cough and generally feeling unwell the day after that and by the end of the week my whole throat, ears, nose, head and face ached, I was getting spikey headaches at regular intervals and the post-nasal drip had worn out the skin and I was swallowing a river of bloody mucus. I steadily got sicker and then the three complications that I always get arrived. Read the rest of this entry »
It is 10 am on a Sunday morning and I feel like I would imagine Sandra Bullock’s character from Speed felt the day after. Or maybe a bit more like John McClane the day after that day, but without any of the feel good fuzzy joy of a things turned out okay ending. I have had a horrible cold for three weeks that’s flaring up all my other issues in the most excruciating ways. Tired does not begin to describe it. Read the rest of this entry »
I prefer doing over thinking because I have a tendency to over think things. On an average day, that’s an excellent strategy. I have a great routine in place that allows me to work on projects and spend time playing and hanging out with my daughter. I have been sick again lately. Other people get colds for a few days, mine usually lasts about three weeks. It starts with a cold then a cough, sore throat and a week or so later I am coughing up blood and dislocating my jaw. I am suddenly spending a lot of time doing a whole lot of nothing but be sick. Read the rest of this entry »